Why I write a hug amount
I am known as a climber who writes a huge amount.
My major first depression
I used to write a lot....almost all day and everyday... which is this blog's original title..., ...it was when my first depression attack came when I was 16. Then, no-one around me understood my situation. I was in a high school where a 100% student goes to a university, they were the kids of doctors and lawyers ... but my mom was a single mom with 3kids and I was the oldest. My mom of course had financial problems. So I felt no way out.
Seeking a social help, I counseled to my school counselor and had tried to change the school so I will have a occupation as soon as I graduated but this attempt of asking help made things worse... school did not allow me to change the school because I was in the best school in the are, so I was even more trapped. Without money, how are you supposed to proceed to upper education?
It was the hardest time of my life... then I was writing a huge amount of sentences trying to explain everything away... so I will wash my pain away... it was the only thing I can do, to not to accuse my mom nor a life... Life sucked at the begging of my life.
So this is what is happening to me. Writing in this blog is how much I was hurt. Wring is how sad I was. If I do not express how do you understand?
My climbing crisis
So as you see, my life was not sweet like average people...even before I became an adult, I had solve more than average adult can solve. In retrospect, the same thing happened in my climbing.
Even before I became fully prepared climber, I had to manage the difficult situation such as bad beley and ignorance.
I was scared in Kyusyu since no one seemed to have a proper understanding on free climbing. It appeared as a concern... in the begging. Now it is confirmed as right.
People in Kyusyu does not have a proper understanding on "today's free climbing" what they've got is 40-year-old-not-updated-understanding.
I went to a most prestigious alpine club in Kyusyu, since I wanted to have a ice climbing mates and as a result I got this photo by an old developer climber who is so proud(i.e. seemed know things).
This photo was actually sent by him so he perhaps assumed this is doing right or total ignorant, or he assumed I am the ignorant one so I will not know how bad this was.
As you can see, this photo shows two climbers. I was on top and leading. Why do I see another climber? Because he was belaying two of us at once. I have never heard of such belay.
Also I should mention this is my first time climb with this belayer and the guy in the blue jacket was a total stranger to me. Usually climbers DO NOT climb multipitch at the first time rope together.
Not just this, I had incidents one after another, that suggest
MOST EXPERIENCED CLIMBERS IN KYUSYU IS THE MOST DENGIOURS
like, giving a lead climber a belay which belay device is attached to a tree... or sitting on a rock while I lead, or forcing me to lead when I don't want. All of those are life threatening.
This is the bolts in Kyusyu...
